To that someone who knows how to play this one song on a guitar,

Please start learning that song and find me.

What song, you ask? Now that's something you'll have to know. I won't tell. I'll just know when I hear it.

So how do you know me? That fun, crazy gal that would often be out with friends? That person who has a lot of herself online?

Maybe I have just been spending too much time online. Or maybe I have just been making the wrong decisions. Or maybe I have just had too much time to think.

Because at the end of the day, there is always something that I am wishing for. That one thing that I don't seem to grasp for reasons I don't know why. Maybe it's just me. Or maybe I need to refocus on what I really want (or what I really need). Maybe I just need help. But I don't know who to go for help.

It all is a matter of interpretation and just how you look at things. I think this is how people should be able to learn how others see things.

Let's try a vase. One may look at it as a vase. However, there is more to that and it depends on how you look at it. One may look at that vase as a vase with intricate details. Another may look at just the material used. Some may look at it as a container of fluid objects.

It all really depends on how you look at it.

And so I think that I have been interpreting things wrong because I honestly have been looking at things just as how I want them to be. I never really see the entire picture - I just see just that part which I want to see. Sometimes, I try to take a look at other angles to know more but my vision is cut off by curtains. They don't wanna let me in.

So now I guess all I need to do is focus my attention on other things. I know that sounds easy to talk about but it's going to be hard on my part. I am just losing hope when it comes to this and to all things related to it. I guess my dreams are just going to be dreams.

I should probably spend more time sleeping.

When should you offer advice? When should you be a friend?

See, sometimes, I don't think I should offer any piece of advice or be there as a friend. It's not because I give pretty stupid ideas. I do know though that sometimes people ask questions not really to to ask for your advice but to have someone to talk to about what is bothering him/her.

I don't think I should offer what I have in mind and be a friend at times because sometimes there are other reasons and I think I only become selfish in the end. And I hate myself when I do that. And sometimes, I do not even know if I am being too obvious or if they are just too dumb not to see what I am doing.

For most instances, I think that there are really no selfless acts. Just as what a Friends episode told, each act is a selfish act  because no matter how you try to help out other people, there will always be something in there for you.