I so miss you guys right now. I don't miss my job. I miss you. All of you. I miss the people I see everyday. I miss the daily chatter. I miss our chats. I miss the friendship. I miss the jokes. I miss the stories. I miss everything about you guys. And I'm so sad right now because it seems like we were never really given the chance to prepare ourselves and properly say goodbye to everyone. Not that we'll be saying goodbye to each other forever but really just about saying "See you around." I so miss you all right now that I just might cry. But I won't because I know we're all strong and we're all going to get through this.

This totally suck! I mean, really. I went to work this morning thinking of the articles I'll be editing and then just right around our first break, we were told that our office was not going to operate anymore. So there. I'm now out of a job. If you do know any online opportunities or any job openings here in the Legazpi area, tell me, okay? I really need it. I've got a son to feed, ya know.

This is so sad. I mean, not because I'll be out of a job but because I'll be missing these guys here. I'll be missing them all. I'll miss the laughter and the tears and the friendship and everything else in between. To the MBS Tek - US Auto Parts people and to all friends I've made, I'll miss you all. Goodluck to all of us, even to those who'll be transferring to Manila. This should be a blessing in disguise, I think.

Thanks for everything guys!

So I just need to get this off my chest. I just have to. So bear with me, okay?

See, I was just chatting with an orgmate, Lipay, and she said that our org, UP Ibalon, is now affiliated with Alyansa. Okay. Last time I heard, the org didn't file their reaffiliation with STAND-UP which has been the alliance we've had during the time I've been a resident member. But I guess things are changing and they've decided that the best way to go would be to be part of Alyansa. I'm just thinking, "What the hell are they thinking?" But I'm not going to delve any further. It's their decision. And whatever I do try to tell them would certainly fall on deaf ears. Not that I'm not trusting the resident members now. It's just that things have changed and I'm not that deeply involved in the org like I used to.

And yes. We're waiting for Yona and Talie to come back. They just bought some food which we'll be sharing. Jirl's on her last day today and come to think of it, it's sad. Really.

Last Sunday, despite the fact that I was still too sleepy because of the jamming we had the night before over at Olops' house, I trudged to downtown Legazpi to do the groceries. It was my responsibility especially with my kid's supply of milk already low. So I got up and changed and then dragged my son and our helper to Legazpi. We spent just a short period placing in our small basket the things we needed for the next two weeks. I also was not in the mood to walk around because there were plenty of people and I was still super lost because I still lacked sleep.

When we had paid for the groceries, I quickly informed my son and our helper that we were to go home already. When we were about to reach the door, I felt my son tugging at my hand. I asked him what was the matter. He told me that he still didn't want to go home. I had to make a quick decision. I told him that we would be going instead to the nearby stall that sold (pirated) DVDs. I told him that he could choose a DVD and then after that, we would go home. Luckily, he agreed.

To cut the story short, my son chose a Jollibee DVD and I was able to find some DVDs which I thought was worth watching. One of DVDs I bought for myself was the third season of Supernatural. I was very sure that it was not the complete season yet but I was quite happy knowing that I could watch some of the episodes already.

After arriving at home, on went my computer and there went the Supernatural DVD. I have been meaning to write about Supernatural for so long now and I guess I just got the time to do it.

Supernatural is super fun for me. It's like CSI except that they do think much about those that cannot be explained by science. Also, I do love the story because they still do investigating and the fact that they're really good at telling lies just to get to the story behind the case they are working on makes me think of detectives and spies. And that I so like.

Come to think of it, I love the Winchester brothers. At first, I liked Sam (the younger brother played by Jared Padalecki) better because he was the silent type. He was also the one who used his brains and was quite better looking. Well, that was what I thought first. But after watching several episodes, I liked Dean (the older of the two brothers played by Jensen Ackles) better. He was far handsome than Sam. And yes, he was the loud type of guy but there was always something more to him that you just wanted to learn. Well, I guess, this just goes to show just what I do like. Hehe.

Anyhow, one of the episodes was about witchcraft. I thought that there was good witchcraft (white) and bad witchcraft (black). However, the thing is, when you're doing witchcraft, you're actually asking for help from somebody who has powers. Now, no matter what kind of witchcraft you are actually practising, you're still asking for help from demons. And when you do such a thing, even if you're asking for help like for a promotion or something, you're selling your soul to that demon you're asking help from. And then that demon owns you. Scary, right? Because you just can't get anything just because. There'll always be something in exchange.

Oh well. I'm not interested in doing witchcraft and I don't think I ever will. Let those witches be bitches and let them sell their own souls. I don't care.

Lost already? Well, here's what's it about:

Supernatural is an American cult dramatic television series regarding the paranormal.

The show follows brothers Sam Winchester and Dean Winchester who travel across the country in a black 1967 Chevy Impala investigating and combating paranormal events and other unexplained occurrences, many of them based on American urban legends and folklore, as well as classic supernatural creatures such as vampires, werewolves, and ghosts.

So over the weekend, I've already finished the few episodes of Supernatural's third season and I'm fine. I'm looking forward to watching more episodes. Anybody got a copy?

Out of boredom, I decided to visit my old blog. And yes, I came across some really interesting stuff. Like about that entry I did on my birthday four years ago with Atom as one of my 'gifts' for he handed me that card. Hehe. But you know, it's fun reading old posts because they do tell you a lot about yourself that time. I mean, while reading those stuff, I was thinking, "Was I really the one who wrote that?"

Anyway, here's one thing I wrote. I honestly don't know why I'm posting this here but I guess I just want to share this with everyone else because they may relate to this.

Tinawag mo ang pangalan ko.

Panaginip? Hindi ko alam. Ayokong tumingin sa aking likod sapagkat ayokong ma-disappoint.

Tinawag mo ulit ang pangalan ko.

Marahil hindi na nga ito isang panaginip.

Ibinaling ko ang tingin sa lugar na pinagmumulan ng tinig.

Ikaw nga. Oo. Ikaw.

May ngiti sa iyong mga labi. Mapupula pa rin ito at mistulang hindi nakaranas ng simangot. Makikinang pa rin ang iyong mga mata na tila laging may nais iparating na hindi kayang sabihin ng mga labi. Ang buhok mo’y tila isang damuhan na nagkakasayahan at sumasayaw sa saliw ng hangin.

Ikaw. Ikaw na ikaw nga.

Nilapitan kita upang yakapin. Matagal na rin kitang hindi nakikita. Na-miss na pala kita. Kahit isang yakap lang. Parang hindi nagdaan ang maraming taon at tayo’y nagkahiwalay. Isa. Isa lang.

Hindi ka umalis sa kinatatayuan mo at mas lalong tumingkad ang ngiti na hindi pumapaltos na abutin ang iyong mga mata. Waring hinihintay mo ako.

Niyakap kita. Matagal.

Ngunit.

Wala ka na sa aking mga bisig. Hangin. Wala ka sa paligid ko. Wala ka. Ako lamang at ang kuwartong naging testigo sa mga gabing hindi makatulog at ikaw lamang ang iniisip. Wala ka. Ako lamang ang naririto.

Hindi ko man maako. Ngunit ganito talaga. Kailangang tanggapin. Multo ka na lamang ng kahapon. Pangarap. Panaginip. Hanggang doon ka na lamang. Hindi ka na akin.

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