I have been thinking. And now I know the kind of guy that I usually get attracted to.

I like mysterious guys. You know, that kind that would seem "broody". Would not utter a word if you're not close. Would just pass by you. Would even seem to be "suplado". But then again, that kind of guy that when you see him with friends, he would be one of the friendliest and really part of his crowd. The mystery is the one that makes me want to know him more. You know. That's the attractive part. That's the challenge.

I also do not go much for guys who are "makulit" and those which you may describe to be a "clown". I dunno why.

I like the kind of guy who's not too maputi. I mean, I feel like I am his maid if I am with him. And yes, I also do not really go after those who dress too neat - way neater than I am. I mean, sure, some people may go for them. But with the way I dress, a guy who is neater than me would make me look like his personal maid.

I like the kind of guy who's got sense. Who can think well and really has something to say. I mean somebody you can have those silly jokes with yet also be someone you can have discussions with on really deep matters.

You know why I realized this? You see, I have been thinking about stuff and I think I do find similarities between all those guys that I have "liked". Think Atom Araullo. Think Johnny Depp. Think Hua Tze Lei. Think Dao Ming Si. All other guys, I won't mention anymore. You'll probably not know them. Haha.

By the way, if you do find other similarities between them, tell me. I may sure have missed something.

Today is a bad day. A totally bad day. Bad trip!

I woke up to find that my alarm clock did not go off. Upon further inspection, I noticed that the time has been changed. I mean, really. Instead of seeing 7:31am, I was seeing 7:31pm. Gawd!

So I was going to be late. And I decided not to go to work anymore. I was going to be late. So let me just work at home. I'll go to the office in the afternoon.

Before going to the office, I decided to go to the mall first to buy some things. When I was inside, it was packed with people. I went off to buy some original VCDs of those movies that I love. There was a mall-wide sale so I took the opportunity to buy those stuff that I needed.

But the thing is, I have not eaten anything since I woke up and it was already past noon. My stomach was grumbling and I felt like fainting. Really. The airconditioning unit in the mall seems not to be working. And at the cashier, the lines were really, really, really long. Well, I was not surprised. The cashiers were slow. And I mean slow.

When I arrived at the office, I discovered that I could not log in into my computer. Guess what? They created accounts. Again. I was given limited access. And yes, my files were gone. Thank you. I had to wait for like an hour to get everything back.

They were able to get my files but boy do I still have to familiarize myself with the new settings. Sheesh! And yes, my files were all in disarray. And when I did try to work, the programs would hang. If I would save my files (ctrl+S), documents would hang. Excel sheets would hang. I even have to wait for like 10 minutes to open my files. That's how slow the computer is running.

I asked our technical group and they said that it is because of a virus. Virus my ass. I have been using this PC since I came here and guess what? It has not been acting this slow. Yes, our outdated computer at home is running faster than this one, I tell you. And they tell me they have reformatted my PC? Please.

I think I'll work on my tasks at home. It's not my fault they changed my PC's settings. (They even changed my desktop with this utterly ridiculous picture. Gawd! I think I prefer just having plain gray as my desktop, thank you very much.)

I hope things do work out well after this. I could not afford any other "mishaps". I think I'll go crazy anytime soon.

Sure, I do have lots of friends there. I have lived there for around 6 years. But no, I don't think I'd love to stay there. Again.

If I wanted to, I would have gone back right after my maternity leave. But I chose not to. For plenty of reasons. And I don't think anybody needs to know why.

I guess I'm not just fit for long-term Manila culture/living. Especially if I would be relying on my own finances. Oh well.

Goodluck.

I have been watching Meteor Garden again. Yes, I know. It's been years since it was shown but still I do love the story. Really.

And yes, I am thinking about those thesis days when we all had to look at Meteor Garden and F4 as pop culture icons and all that. I never did get to enjoy watching the show then. Now, I'm so happy watching it right now.

Thank God we do have VCDs of the first season.

Yes, I do love taking pictures. I love taking photographs and I do try to capture those objects or those scenes in a different angle and in a different light. Sometimes, I succeed. Sometimes, I don't.

I don't do it to impress myself or anybody else. I just love doing it. I've always wanted to be an artist who could draw masterpieces with their hands. But I was not gifted with that. So I've shifted to photography.

I haven't studied photography. I would just browse through some books and that's that. I never did get even closer to using an SLR or a dSLR. All I am armed with is my trusty (and very low-end) Canon A430. But I don't care. All that matters to me is how my pictures would look like in the end. That's why I'm keeping a photoblog so I can share most of my pictures and most of the memories that my camera has captured. But sad to say, I'm around 1 1/2 months delayed in posting my photos. So there.

Ann, a friend, said that I should perhaps take photography lessons. Maybe I will. Maybe I will not. You see, for me, all I care about is taking those pictures for fun. It would never be some kind of a source of income or something for me. Because once it becomes business, it would not be that fun anymore. The pressure would be there.

That's why photography is a hobby for me. It is a form of expression. It is capturing how I see things and it is preserving memories that may soon be gone from our minds.