And maybe I will be able to start forgetting all about these. I feel really stupid though because it's a one-way affair and it's coming from my side. But I guess you will never really know. It's just me and my mind creating those situations which are not even close to reality. That's what I get for being too creative.

What if I took the time away? Would you even notice? I'm thinking you won't. And I wouldn't dare ask. Nothing would change for you. But I'm not even sure if I can do it. All I need is time. And someone to talk to. Someone who will listen. My problem is that I do not share everything about myself to just one person. Bits and pieces of me are scattered between my friends. So that sharing bit with just one person is going to be hard. Unless you ask me the right questions to get me to talk. Oh well.

But I guess you said one thing right about me. And I've felt two things: happiness and fear. Happy because someone recognized it. And fear because you may know the specifics. But I'm guessing you have no idea at all about the specifics. And you are just one lucky guesser.

So there. Just give me time, will ya?